Switching

back to livejournal because i can lock entries (:

Anything Anywhere

Today gotta be one of the worst days of my melbourne life.

1) Got a fine

2) Rashes are back

and slowly, im starting to think and think and think

and i am hardly/rarely like that > ):

will anyone care?

a friend tweeted this,

frankly, I don't really have a lot of friends like others do. BUT all my friends are true friends whom I can talk to, that's enough for me.

hopefully thats enough for me too.

Long Long Time

Differentiate what is right or wrong

only one

Be true to yourself

Feelings

Somehow this feeling feels so so so weird and i myself dont know if it is the right or wrong thing.

Hopefully, i'll just move along till i know the answer. Might just be walking on another aimless journey, where everything is temporary...

Plans

Thinking of the plans ahead really makes me excited

If everything goes according to plan, then i can safely say it is successful

LET'S WAIT AND SEE

In the middle

Craving these kinda breakfast with a nice atmosphere, lovely morning, and of course with good company

In the midst of exams and all i think of post-exam activities!!

Can't wait can't wait can't wait for thursday to come (:

Meantime, i just gotta study hard motivate thyself and press on!

stop and feel

inner feelings

Life is beautiful but its complicated, we barely make it

Truth

Sometimes

Some things aren't worth fighting for

Silence

Because I know the world stops for no one, therefore I will not stop to bother about you if you don't bother about me.

Time pass, things change, people change, so just move on

time is the answer

this post shall be dedicated to you

it's been maybe 2 years since everything started. slowly from a stranger in school to a friend's friend to a friend whom i've actually known. Sometimes i really wonder if this is true or maybe a passing phase. But after so long, i guess not. I am still hanging to this only hope i have. But it is this thin fine line between that is holding me back. Why is this so difficult? I don't even have an answer. Often at times, i laugh it off thinking that i am silly and putting on a strong front. But deep down, its just the opposite that i don't show.

And now, distance apart, makes things even worse. But i am grateful for the internet as form of communication. Weeks and days pass, 9months of hell. I've got maybe 3.5years. So will time tell? Will time give me an answer?

And maybe sometimes i don't know if i think too much, thinking of the underlying meaning of everything said? maybe it's just that simple. sometimes i don't know what to reply/say and yet i feel like i've got so much things to say. this irony of it all.

A thousand thoughts running through my mind. Putting it in words makes me feel so much better.

I'll wait, and maybe one day i'll just let go, let go of everything.

Falling Slowly

Sometimes i really wish this wasn't happening. Not at all. Mixed up feelings all inside.

need to find someone to hear me out )':

All things possible

This mask i am wearing now will be worn very soon.

Move on

To fail is a natural consequence of trying, To succeed takes time and prolonged effort in the face of unfriendly odds. To think it will be any other way, no matter what you do, is to invite yourself to be hurt and to limit your enthusiasm for trying.

Limits and expectations

There's always a limit to how much i can bear with and tolerate. And maybe its just my sensitivity doing me in. My weakness i would say. So tell me what can i do ? Its just the beginning and maybe it was too fast to even pass a judgement. Time will tell. All i hope that it will only be good and not bad. This feeling of insecurity. All i can do now is not think so much maybe.

Expectations
Expectations i have for myself. To put it simply, i am not up to my own expectations. Fear of repeating the same mistakes all over again. All i need is faith. Faith in myself. But its just hard. Its hard to not think about how you screw everything up and you do not wish to do it again. This, I must overcome.

Can someone hear me out? Can someone understand how i feel? Can you?

> ):

time to make this right

sometimes i cant deny the fact the it sucks a little deep down that everyone is talking about uni and im still in a college doing my foundation in other words matriculation. sigh. such is life aye. i have to accept it. i am happy to be given this chance and im happy with my life but yeah there's still a little bitterness ! pardon me. ):

so one month has passed and i think i'm adapting well. the company <3 keeps me sane.
gonna work hard and attain the grades i want and not let myself and others down!
gonna make things right and not waste anymore time.

positivity. maybe that is why i have no regrets of what i am doing and i am not crying to go home.
because i chose this way, there's no turning back and i gotta make do with whatever i have.
"When life knocks you down, there's always a chance of getting around it"

shall keep all doubts and negativity and pessimism behind me.
all good things shall come my way, I HOPE.

gotta sleep and prepare for school tmr byebye !

Livin it up in Melbourne

hello peeeeeps i bet no one reads this blog haha but i shall post a post here!

so yes im in melb already staying in onyu's apartment now gonna move in this weekend!

my days here have been awesome thus far (: eating all day long and going to pretty cafes for coffee and such. just gotta luv it! (: the company is great too !

on the other hand, school has already started. haha. no complains abt lessons cause its just the beginning. but just some thoughts on stuff....here goes

sometimes i think i trust people too easily. i make judgements way too early. but guess ill just leave it first. but somehow sometimes it gets kinda uncomfortable in some situations. maybe its ME. oh wells, i dont know yet. only time will tell.

doubts and only doubts.

i just wanna thank god for the friends i have now ( those i know for a really long time (: ) guess only them will keep me sane and make life better! guess thats the feeling the feeling of being comfortable with each other's company be it having fun tgt or just doing our own stuff <3

oh right gotta sleeep lesson at 9am tmr BYEBYE

shall post pictures if im not feeling lazy (:

Less than a day

That's it, im left with less than a day in Singapore before i start my life in melb !
Everything feels so surreal still, time really flies.
I am gonna be a good girl.
Gonna study hard, yes i will.
Be a good room mate.
Be a good friend to everyone i know (:

28th June Qantas 745pm Terminal 1
C U <3

So soon, Too soon

The irony of it all

It’s funny how hello is always accompied with goodbye. It’s funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It’s funny how forever never seems to really last. It’s funny how much you’d lose if you forgot about your past. It’s funny how friends can leave you when you’re down. It’s funny how when you need someone, they’re never around. It’s funny how people change and think they’re so much better. It’s funny how many lies can be packed in one ‘love letter’. It’s funny how people can forgive, even though they can’t forget. It’s funny how one night can contain so much regret. It’s funny how ironic life turns out to be. But, the funniest part of all is that none of this really seems funny to me.

eletheowl

Get a Grip

I SERIOUSLY THINK THAT PEOPLE WITH LOW EQ SHOULD PUT THEMSELVES IN OTHER PEOPLE'S SHOES BEFORE THEY SPEAK. I CANNOT STAND IT ANYMORE. YOU WILL ONLY MAKE YOURSELF MORE MISERABLE AND WORST STILL MAKE OTHER PEOPLE'S LIFE DIFFICULT. SO PLEASE DONT MAKE MINE DIFFICULT WHEN YOU ARE THE ONE THINKING TOO MUCH AND MAKING SEEM YOU ARE ON THE LOSING END. JUST THINK HOW YOU TREATED PEOPLE. I BELIEVE IN KARMA JUST YOU WAIT. WE CHOOSE TO GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL DOESNT MEAN WE HAVE TO STICK TO EACH OTHER. WE ARE JUST CHOOSING WHATS BEST AND ITS YOUR DAMN OWN EDUCATION AND LIFE SO YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT AND I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT. SO STOP TELLING OTHERS THINGS THAT MAKE ME LOOK/SOUND LIKE A BITCH. THIS WILL GO ON AND ON IF I CONTINUE TYPING BUT GUESS ILL JUST STOP HERE FOR NOW.

PS. PEOPLE PLAN A FAREWELL SO THT WE CAN HAVE FUN AND YOU HAVE TO BE SO OVERLY SENSITIVE ABT THE TITLE AND EVERYTHING. ITS JUST A DAMN TITLE IT DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING. PLS STOP BEING SO EVER SARCASTIC.

KTHXBAI

Oooh i miss you so

So....its hello kallang byebye serangoon!

By the time i'm back in singapore its no more blk 8 #08-07

Sigh i will miss everything here ):

Hi, what's your name ?

Sometimes, you just need someone to talk to. Someone who is not only willing to be there for you, but understands you & what you’re going through. Someone who you out down your guards & reveal your imperfections. Someone who will never judge you or sway away even from the mistakes you make. Someone who doesn’t need words to prove but you both know that the person will always be there. Someone who loves you, truly for who you are. One of the greatest gifts in life is having the chance to find someone like that in your life.

eletheowl.tumblr.com

Japanese mood

Okay mini updates !
Tues was dinner with meh and good time spent catching up (: got my baggu bag too hehe luvin' it. Oh dinner was at itacho, ggood food as usual !

Yest was UPS reunion like finally. Lunch at WATAMI. yes a whole lot of jap food. haha had lunch set which was vvv worth it. service was even better (: walked around town, caught up , laughed alot too. and yes saw a juicy bag at On pedder but im gonna get it on farfetch heheh ^^

The night was a bomb full of laughter with dearest cheng. Haha bitchy business going on. I guess technology never fails to bring people closer tgt! though we are so far apart but i feel like you are just beside me. (L)

PS Mizzz you plenty. Afraid not, June 28th is nearing (:

Okay today is isetan private sale yo !!! must dig something out from there hahahaha im not gonna leave empty headed wahahahahah

Gotta get ready sooooooon buhbyeeeee people !

Tell me Goodbye

selling post done ! waiting for people to comment only
have been lookbooking / deviantart-ing / photobucketing /sgflea-ing for the past hours
will post some pictures later

NAP FIRST

XOXO

Things You Say

Monday Blues

i'm gonna spam random facts okay

waking up very early these few days
using comp too much but there's nth much to do anyway
approximately 8 days to HK
approximately 36 days to MELB
life has been good without work
i do things i like
running out of $$$
running through photobucket looking at random pictures
need to find a day to go out alone cause i wanna go kino and read stuff i like do things i like and see things i like
hmmm should i start a tumblr ???
gay okay cant wait to get my macbook also.
shall blog about mroe interesting stuff when i feel like it !
SHALL START ON SELLING POST NOW
time check : 11.55am
buhbyeeeeeee

baby you are kidding me

yeah some things are not meant to be

and i am slowly accepting it

tell or leave it doesn't really bother me anymore

okay maybe it does but to a small extent

its time yes its time to let go of everything

xoxo

Forty-Two

I really hope that i can start life anew in melbourne! Have a greater better life there!
Hope it would be a life changing experience aye.
But whenever i think of what has happened im really afraid it wont turn out the way i hope it would.
Because of you i feel like im constantly stuck in the same situation for NO DAMN REASON. you are over sensitive and its doing you no good. and i just had enough really. i have my own life to lead and my own decisions to make so do you. Thinking too much and too much negativity will just do you in. Knowing you already i know what you are capable of. So really leave me alone for i wanna study hard and have fun with my lovelies okay.
Argh i know i sound like a bitch saying this but then i really had enough of it. its like a vicious cycle since school days and i want it to end. KTHXBAI

Not much time left

sooo i got not much time left and i have already made my decision of going aust to study i hope i dont regrettttttt and not be superbly homesick ):
but its ME who wants to GO so i got no one to blame if i cry wanting to come back when im already there.

28th JUNE is the day i am flying offfff
on one hand i am damn excited to start life anew with cheng and all
on the other hand i dont know whats pulling me back. i will miss all my friends and family and everything ): there comes FEAR.

be strong, carry on
cos all you have at the end of the day is ultimately you and you alone.

HOW apt

that sums what ive been thinking abt these days.

and only then i will let people know abt this blog so that i can catch up with everyone back in sgp when im in melb !

and also i havent told YOU yet but then i guess tellling you wouldnt make a difference oh wells )':

Good Monday

Its simple things like these that brightens up my day (:
needless to say, it was a good monday !

Hope tues would be equally good <3

Whatever you like

THIS IS WHAT I WANT
THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT
TIME IS ALL I NEED
I CAN DO THIS
DONT TRY TO MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND
(:

no work today !!! hiphiphooray !!!
a lazy sunday spent with the family. I likeeee
need more of this before i even leave ):

Finally

everything has finally come to an end
but was it the right thing to call the police ?
oh wells i am just glad that everything's over
a day that i will always remember in MDS

In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, the relationships we were afraid to have and the decisions we waited too long to make.

eletheowl

Forever and a day

Sooooo summerteaparty is created
and i have the sudden urge to blog blog blog post post post
at least i am active on twitter ^^

okay this blog is like an escape of whatever im facinggggg

sometimes i just think its difficult to tell people or someone how you really feel because its just hard to pour everything i mean EVERYTHING out and so i guess its better to shut up and stomach everything. Cause sometimes i am afraid of having a reply i dont wish to hear/know or whatever it is.
I think i may look totally happy go lucky with everything my life and at work but deep down i think im pretty screwed up and maybe i am just living in self denial ??? trying to avoid stuff whenever possible.

i am just ranting so don't bother.

And it sucks to feel shitty every now and then especially when i am alone and when thought run wild.....

tomorrow will be a better day


gooooooodnight